I guess I am just doomed to be surounded by cake this month. In the 3 weeks that I have been on my pre op diet we have had at least 1 office birthday a week and one of those weeks there were 2!!!!! In my office what they do for a birthday is bring in lots of cake, chips, dips, rolls, cookies, you name it and everyone eats. The first one I could not even go to that side of the office. I would take the long way around to get to the copier and bathrooms. It has gotten easier with each birthday but I still feel this ping of crabbiness everytime I see someone walk by with a plate full of yummy goodness. So what do I do instead? I read the OCC message boards, I look up testimonials, I look at the countdown to my band or I update this blog. It helps a bit and even gives me that atta girl feeling that I have beaten some dark moster deep in my brain. I know I don't need the cake physically but I am still battling that fat girl in my mind. She sure does miss food!
Speaking of the blog. It really has been a great thing for me. I know it is not viewed but it still makes me feel accountable for what I eat or the activity I do. It also helps me vent without boring loved ones with constant complaints of food. Found a great low carb thing this weekend. The family had grilled cheeses so I made one too. I used sliced turkey as the bread and a little bit of cheese in the middle and grilled it like a grilled cheese sandwich. It was great and hit the spot...... My son wanted one too! I am starting to pick up on tricks of the trade and proving that a fat girl can learn new tricks!