The Story of a Fat Girl

I am a girl on a mission.  I am determined to take back my life and prove that under all this fat is a healthy person.  This is my outlet and sounding board during this journey.  I hope that I can educate and help others that are fighting to find their inner skinny person and overcome the battles and pain that comes with being overweight. 

I have been overweight for most of my life.  In fact as close as you can get to my whole life.  When I was 10 I started to gain weight.  I was a size 18 from 7th grade until after I had my first child.  I was not happy with being bigger but I accepted it and even knew that I was beautiful and curvy in just the right places.  I was made fun of until I got to high school but I was always able to lift my head and pretend to not hear what was being said.  I didn't mind being active and enjoyed playing sports and going for walks but I was doomed to be fat.  I had a cyst on one of my ovaries when I was 15 and had the ovary removed because the cyst had "consumed" it.  I was later to learn that I had Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome.   This means that I have crazy periods, cysts on my ovaries and my body likes to gain weight and hold on to it like a diamond ring.  As long as I stayed around a size 18 I could live with that.

I went off to school, met the man of my dreams, got married and had a baby.  The OB/GYN thought that since I was able to have a baby that the PCOS might reverse itself and I would be a normal girl.  HA!  When my son was 6 months old I gained 40 pounds in a little over 2 weeks and continued to gain 5-10lbs with each period.  I eventually got on birth control for hormone therapy and it slowed things down but I was not able to lose the weight.  Here I am 10 years later and I am ready to take back my life.  I am ready to play with my 3 kids and I am ready to be me again.  I am tired of fading into the background in hopes that no one will notice the poor fat girl and comment on how she might break the chair if she isn't careful.  I am ready to move on and fight.

I chose the lap band because after lots of research and prayer I knew that it was the best choice for me.  My sister-in-law has had it done and is doing great and she referred me to Dr. Ortiz with the OCC in Tijuana, Mexico.  I had nothing but great experiences with the clinic and would suggest them to anyone.  I am still learning the ins and outs of my band and I have even named my port abby (in hopes that I will lose enough weight that it will just be part of the ab six pack).  I will be open and honest about my trials and my success as I make my way down this road and I am thankful for the support group that I have in real life and here in  blog land.  Thanks for reading my story.

~ Fat Girl