I am a fat girl. That's right, I am morbidly obese. I have been overweight for most of my life. A lot of this comes from having PCOS and also from giving up hope. I was okay with putting my head in the sand and pretending that I was happy and confident with my size. I wasn't. I took metformin and the BC Yaz and worked out and ate right for almost 3 years and lost 50 pounds, great right? I got off of the meds for money reasons and in 4 months had it all right back on. At that point I decided that it was war. It was time for me to fight harder and get help. I decided to get a lap band. I called them about two weeks ago to start getting information and started to discover a new hope building in me. A hope that one day I might not have to be embarassed while eating in public (even if it is a salad) or worried that my kids would be made fun of at school for having a fat mom and most of all I would feel confident and proud of myself when my husband announces to people that he has the sexiest wife instead of the feeling I get now when he says that. (he must be blind with love!) In short it was time to just do it.
My husband and I had a long dicussion and looked over all the budgets and decided that we could make it work and pay for the surgery. I decided that since my insurance considured it a cosmetic surgery (gripe about that on another post) and would not cover it that I would use the same clinic that a couple of my friends have used. I am going through Dr Ortiz's clinic http://obesitycontrolcenter.com/ I have researched them and know people that have used them and feel that it is safe and most of all affordable. The website is great and they even have a forum that is helpful, motivating and fun to read. They even assign you a consultant that has already been through the process and helps guide you on the journey. And a journey it will be.
After calling and getting the info I set a date. I am tired of waiting to lose weight so I decided to set the date for end of October. This gave me 7 weeks to get ready. I filled out the survey and paperwork and then had my phone conference with the nutritionist. She was very nice but she gave me a bit of news that did not encourage me. I was 348 lbs when I made my decision and my BMI is 56 which apparently is too high for surgery. She told me that I needed to lose at least 30 pounds and get the BMI below 50 before my surgery. I explained that it took me 3 years to lose that amount and how could I do it in 2 months. She did not budge and I decided I need to give it my best. I am going to email her my weight, food and activity log every week and hope that she at least sees that I am working hard and take that into considuration if I don't make my goal.
In order to try and make the goal I am doing a low carb diet with excersize. I am drinking a 2 carb protien shake for breakfast and lunch and eating green veggies and a lean protien for dinner everyday. Dr. Miranda told me to take Chromium Piculate and fiber pills to help too. I have been and don't know yet if they are making a difference. I will let you know. For my activity I am starting out with walking 30 minutes a day and hope to keep adding. Searching for an elliptical too but they are hard to find in my weight and price range. Craigslist here I come.
Well, i have rambled on a long time and I know that this site will never be viewed but I think it will help me on this journey and hopefully help others that might be fighting the same war that I am.